The first day was a bit of a blur. I've gotten used to all the stares & side comments, because its become easy for me to ignore people when they talk about you. Plus the IPod really works wonders for people like me, it really does.

Everything seems so uncomfortable right now.. I need to be in a place I can release all my stress.. A 2nd, oh wait.. 3rd home. Not Washington, not California.. something better.

"Welcome to LetsRockToday, where everyone is stickin' it to the man. Please observe proper chatting ettiquete and remember, Rock 'n' Roll will Save Your Soul!! Rock on!!"

I choose for my font color as usual and checked who was online...

*jennas_red_wagon has entered the chatroom*

j_greene : About time Jen, I was torn between hoping you'd come soon and hoping butterfly_chick wouldn't come back. lol.

jennas_red_wagon : sorry to keep you waiting. :|

j_greene : that's better. so how was your first day?

jennas_red_wagon : horrible. :(

j_greene : why? what happened?

jennas_red_wagon : the usual. got stared at coz i was a "freak" and made fun of by four brainless bimbos. At least my brother was there with me.. *sigh*

j_greene : say, those bimbos sound familiar.

jennas_red_wagon : lol. well they're the stereotypical preps found in every school..

j_greene : true. your brother's name is Dave right?

jennas_red_wagon : yeah, why?

j_greene : just wondering. ;)

j_greene : try not to worry so much Jen, i know it'll turn out just fine.. meet anyone cool yet?

jennas_red_wagon : not really, no.

*tracy_dee86 has entered the chatroom*

tracy_dee86 : JENNA!

jennas_red_wagon : hey trace!!!

tracy_dee86 : How are you!!!!!! tell me everything. how was school?

jennas_red_wagon : it's horrible trace.. I was surrounded by preps.

tracy_dee86 : that's horrible jenna. i'm so sorry. *hug*

tracy_dee86 : everyone seems okay over here... we all miss you. I've been staying with Steve a lot lately, since you left.

jennas_red_wagon : oh. i thought you hated him?

tracy_dee86 : well.. i changed my mind. he's been really nice to me over the summer.

jennas_red_wagon : oh. ok. uh, brb.

*private message from j_greene*

*j_greene : are you okay?

*jennas_red_wagon : no. I hate this. I hate this new school. My best friend has replaced me for a guy.

*j_greene : if it's any consolation, i won't replace you for butterfly_chick. ;)

*jennas_red_wagon : lmao!! how comforting.

*j_greene : I know.

*j_greene : Seriously, don't worry 'bout school. You'll meet people soon.

*jennas_red_wagon : thanks for caring, really.

*j_greene : no prob, jen.

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Back in the main screen...

tracy_dee86 : and he brought me to the theme park last weekend, it was sooo fun! I might actually start to like him... what do you think jen?

tracy_dee86 : JEN. are you there?

*butterfly_chick has entered the chatroom*

*private message from j_greene*

*j_greene : oh shit! it's her! i'll talk to you soon okay jen? later!

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I laugh to myself again when I remember what had happened last night. Johnny really helped me give Westmount High another chance. But something really bothered me.

Tracy has been my best friend since 7th grade and never once has she thought about getting a boyfriend. Now I find that she's been with that Steven guy since summer? Even if they're not together, I KNOW they will be. That's always how it is with boys and girls. It's inevitable. As for Johnny, he's only a friend. ONLY.

Why is this happening? My BEST FRIEND. She's not one of them. She said she never would be.. and suddenly I'm not so sure anymore.